My name is Marty. I would like to tell you a little about myself. I suffered a dramatic loss in my life back in April of this year. That is when my angel, Dawn Koonce, was called home. She was someone very special to me and she gave my soul peace while on earth. So now my soul must walk in the confused state and hopefully it will find peace someday. I guess I could say that I'm angry, confused, lost, bitter, and most of all empty. This was my best friend, lover, and mother of our children. We'll truly miss this loving spirit.

I'm told that in time the pain that I'm feeling will pass. In a way I pray that it never does. For if the pain goes away I feel that I will lose contact with this love. What keeps me going is a promise that Jesus gave us that we will get to see our loved ones again. I am truly looking forward to the family reunion.

What makes me so angry now is that friends that we had during this 20 year relationship have decided to no longer be friends. They hide behind selfish ideals and lies. They do not have the courage to sit with me and explain why they feel they should not be my friend any longer. They used to be someone you could depend upon but now they just make excuses. Some of these friends used to be truly religious but they cannot practice what they preach. They mostly live in a lie. I must find a way to forgive and forget. But at this moment I can find neither.

Some people just tell me to go out and find a new love. They try telling me that I should just move on. But how does one start over? I guess this to will come in time.

That is why I have set up this website to hopefully help others that are suffering through a loss like I am. We seem to have a plan for how we want our life to be led, we plan for retirement, but we truly do not plan for our death. No one knows the day when we die, and we surely do not know what hardships we leave to our loved ones. So in some small way that you can find at least some of the answers and help your family through what will be a very trying period.

Please feel free to email me and share your experiences. For it is truly my belief that we never forget angels if we share these experiences. They live on in our hearts and minds so let us never forget.